I knew exactly how having a baby will make me feel, until IT DIDN’T

Like any other first time mom I had it all figured out. Nursery was set, hospital bag was ready, I had read all there was to read. Most importantly I knew exactly how having a baby will make me feel, until IT DIDN’T. We were ecstatic to bring home the new member of our family. After few days our mothers left and reality kicked in. It felt like I was shoved in the corner of a gloomy room, which apparently was set as the colorful happy place for my child. I was sleep deprived and physically weak. Like any other child my baby would cry inconsolably, and I didn’t know what to do. I couldn’t get hang of feeding let alone breastfeeding. I looked like a mess and so did my house. I felt like I was failing at everything. Soon after that, I started feeling like I am left alone in life. Seeing everyone is busy in their lives made me feel like I lost my life and now I am stuck with the baby. I was always agitated. Everything bothered me, people giving me advice m...